We spent today in Dodge City. It was fun. Boot Hill is pretty nice but its way to modernized for me. I like to see original building not reproductions for everything. Marissa really like the repro cow in there. It was nice to see and we spent several hours there. We took the carriage ride around town and the kids enjoyed that. We took a break mid day and laundry and took a nap. I know I needed some down time. We drove around town and looked at a cattle farm so the girls saw tons of cows. We went over to fort Dodge and saw the museum there. We went back for the old fashioned chuck wagon dinner and it was AWESOME!!! We had corn in cream and fresh butter, coleslaw, biscuits with honey, potatoes and onions, and beef brisket!! It was awesome!!! It was homemade quality food. We of course had seconds  

We then watched more of shark week. I thought we had missed it but we didn't so now we try to catch it each night.

I am freaking miserable btw!!! I still want to chop my legs off. I get a bit of relief but it can take a few weeks for these to heal and I don't think I will last that long with out chopping off a body part for relief!! How can something so freakin small cause so much pain and discomfort??? I seriously entertained going to the hospital for some good drugs to knock me out until they are healed. But we are trying a new method and it seems to be working. We have chiggerid painted on them. I soaked in Epsom salts for a long time and that helped a ton! Then I have 2 different creams I use for temp itch relief until its time to redo the other. Have I mentioned how miserable I am???

I want so badly to call my mom for advice. I always have in the past. I have her on speed dial on my phone. I am sad my brother changed her answering machine so I can't call and hear her voice. I need her and feel abandoned. I am sort of mad at her for dying because I kind of feel she killed herself by not listening to her doctor. She was told if she smoked this would happen and it did. I know everyone dies at some point in life but I am not ready for her to be gone.