I am very tired. Both emotionally and physically. I need a vacation from this when we are home again.

Today was a very hard sad day for me. We laid my mom to rest in Arlington Cemetery in Chicago.  We had to be at her church at 9:00 am. The ceremony started at 10. We then went to the cemetery. That was quite the adventure. The hearse got lost. Actually my sister had given the wrong place to them in the beginning and they knew it was someplace else but didn't realize it until we arrived so we got to take the scenic route. I really enjoyed seeing my Aunt Karen. She is a total crack up. My aunt Cindy is a character too. Dave enjoyed meeting them both. Dave was a pall bearer for my mom. I am very sad at feel lost without my mom. I keep wanting to call her and talk like we did. I really need her still. I am not ready for her to be gone.

We went to a luncheon afterwards. It was very nice. I sat next to George and visited with him. I feel so bad for him. His ex wife is going through the same exact thing. She has about until Christmas. This whole thing is so hard on him. I found out my mom had been smoking again. I kind of suspected it but couldn't prove it. My brother caught her once, smelled it many times, My uncle caught her on a cruise they took together, and George knew. So she tried to hide it but everyone knew. I seriously think this is what caused the cancer. She had been warned a few years ago it would. I am so saddened that I feel like she did it to herself. I am actually a bit angry at her. This is so hard to deal with. Now both Dave and I have no parents left. I am feel very lonely.

Marissa got to hug a corn stalk today. There is a corn field out behind the church. She enjoy it immensely. We still need to get the poor kid an ear to eat.